i'm not very good with messages of gratitude or whatever, but i feel compelled to write one for some reason tonight... after a series of dreams in which i experienced some wonderful things with old friends, i seem to have regained some of my youthful optimism which was very much present back when i was 18
i can certainly relieve myself of any delusions and accept that a lot of time has passed and it is highly unlikely that anything new will develop in my old friendships, but looking back i definitely understand how much people cared for me and appreciated me, but my lack of communication skills made sure i never managed to truly reciprocate any of that.
sitting in my bedroom over a year later, i took some time to revisit the music i listened to back then, look at some old pictures and think about everything; almost a week later i've still come to no conclusion, but presumably thanks to me wanting to relive my experiences, i started making music again and immersed myself in creative endeavors i'd forgotten about.